Gandhi, I've never read your book. I hope one day I will.

"A,B,C,D,E,F & G oh, that reminds me of when we were free - before life began to tear us apart."
-The Kooks

I keep forgetting to live. 

Responsibilities. Everyday I do my work. Everyday I live - for the system. 
Get a 4,0 so you can go to the best Colleges. Go to the best Colleges so you can get the best job.
Do the best job so you can retire someday and have totally missed out on living.
Then maybe get sick so you can't even live the last years. The system I am living for.

Time. 6 AM wake up. Go to school. Do homework. Hurry. Eat dinner. Study. Go to sleep and start over the next day.  I can't break out. 

I live for this system, how I was taught to. I am the masterexample of how you can work your butt off for something you don't even believe in. I want to break out. 


When will we own ourselves completely ?

I want to live for my dreams and not for what they expect me to. I really do. And not because I am lazy but because I know that like this with 73 I will look back and see nothing than a little hamster in a hamster wheel. Running without knowing there's a world out there.
There are flowers.
There is sunshine.

I hope I will wake up one day and be able to follow myself and not their footsteps.
I hope I can stop running in this wheel.
I hope one day I will smell the flowers and see the sunshine.
I hope then I can say: "And tonight is not the last time I'll see the light."

And I can stop forgetting and freaking start living.